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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 29 {and 2018}

Daily wordcount: 8,142 (1,942)
Total wordcount: 49,640 (43,440)
On/off target: +1,297 (-4,903)

Yeah... so, if the title is confusing, it's because I've decided to bend the rules to meet my goal. I just want to cross off my 50k words in November goal in my goal book, and I did technically write some last year, and since it's last year's goal and with all the other goals it's cumulative, I figure using words I wrote in a different November is fair game. And it isn't making the story (which I now hate and don't want to spend time on)any less cohesive at this point.

I don't like writing long things. I like drabbles, little short snippets. I'd be fine writing 50k words in November if they were a series of unrelated, 1,667 word short stories. Maybe some would be double-length, maybe some would only be 800 words. If I ever do it again (and I won't!), I think that would be the way I would do it. Unless I had some story already mapped out and planned.

400 words tomorrow for the victory of one less page in my goal book next year! Whoooo-hoooo! Next up, photos blogged. Look forward to some super-random photos this month!

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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 28

Daily wordcount: 2,608
Total wordcount: 41,498
On/off target: -5,178

Two more days. 4,251 words per day for two days. I'm not optimistic, I admit. I have a bit going on both days, more than I had to do today and look how little I wrote! We will have to see, it might be down to the wire... I should keep going tonight, but I'm tired and I still need to make the bed. I'm not going to finish, am I? *sigh*

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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 27

Daily wordcount: 2,284
Total wordcount: 38,890
On/off target: -6,119

I didn't lose ground today, but I made up very little. Still, considering the stress I'm going to call it a win. Can I write 11k+ words in three (maybe really two) days? Technically, yes. I could do it in one if I was motivated enough. Spoiler alert: I'm not. I have zero idea where this is going and don't really care about it beyond the fact that it's a goal I get to cross out of my book. Which is actually a fair amount of motivation, if I'm honest, it's the only thing that has kept me going.

Also I really did drink some bad milk today and my stomach is not happy.

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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 26

Daily wordcount: 1,391
Total wordcount: 36,606
On/off target: -6,736

Life threw me for a huge loop today, and to be honest, NaNo no longer seems in the least important and I just can't concentrate on writing. I mean, the story is already crap, so it doesn't really matter, but I can't even manage to muster up the energy to write much of anything. We'll see if I can overcome it in the next few days, but I rather doubt it? But then, maybe it's what I need to take my mind off of it all. We'll see!


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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 25

Daily wordcount: 4,752
Total wordcount: 35,920
On/off target: -5,755

I tried to get more written today but I ran out of steam. plus, I have to admit that feeling like I made some headway made me feel lax. There are 5 days left, and I have 15,500 words left to write. That's 2,816 words per day. Not unattainable, but not easy, either. The good news is that three of those days I don't have to work (Thursday, Friday, Saturday) so I have more time to write. The bad news is that I have a lot of things planned for Saturday, so, honestly, if I don't get it done on Friday I'm probably hosed. So let's say that should be 3,520 words a day for the next 4 days? We shall see...


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NaNoWriMo 2019, Day 24

Daily wordcount: 0
Total wordcount: 31,168
On/off target: -8,840

...dammit! I just couldn't motivate myself today. There were a lot of other things going on and I just could not make myself write, not even a measly 500 words. All the ground I had clawed back I've lost, and the amount I have to write per day is becoming... daunting. I hope this doesn't end up like years ago when I got to the last 3 days and decided I was going to finish despite having over 35,000 words left to write? Well, it can't be exactly like that, I'm already beyond that, but it's still not going well...

Yeah, I'm not doing this again, and this time I really, really, really, really mean it. What is the point of writing such a crap story beyond the point of doing it, which I've already proven (multiple times) that I can? A real challenge would be to have an outline and a story arc and something I knew where it was going to write! No more of this flying by the seat of my pants and never finishing things!